In panel 5, Toni is answering with her mind. In panel 6, Toni is answering with her heart and soul. Am I correct in
my supposition ?
@CuteDress&TwinPonytails: Exactly correct. Thinking being trans* or gay can be fixed is a mental defense. When you finally realize that it can't be fixed, the barriers you put up break down, and all that is left is to KNOW it can't be fixed.
Ideally, you then realize that there is nothing wrong with you, and thats why it can't be fixed.
Helpful tip to the readers: You can't be fixed. There is nothing wrong with you to fix.
The breeze on a warm day might be slightly too cold, but when it is gone, suddenly you know why you needed it.
When you look into the face of the person you love, you don't see the perfection, you see the little flaws, and that's what makes them perfect to you.
Someday Toni will understand that she is perfect. Someday, so will I. Hopefully, you day is today. Love yourself.
I am not sure she is helping Toni by pointing out the flaws in her denial. She may feel trapped again...and trapped people try to take the wrong exit out sometimes. She already tried once. Then there is the feeling of shame that her best friend knows everything because Toni talked while under the drugs. This is going to be a long road with lots of thorns and holes.
@Valley: Lexi is trying her best with what she knows as a friend. I didn't even consider what you just said, but you are entirely right. Toni may take it as an oppression instead of a revelation. And given that people who try suicide are extremely likely to try again, that's a bad path.
All we can do is hope that her words are taken in the best light, for Toni's sake.
I get the feeling Toni isn't actually shamed by talking under affects of drugs. Imagine if you found it hard to talk about things, but you *really* needed to say them. And if there was an outlet where you could finally get things off your chest? There might be a little twinge of 'oh no, did I just say that?', but I think the sense of relief of having things in the open would be more powerful.
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