Heavy Pilings

posted October 1st, 2014, 2:01 am


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November 9th, 2013, 6:17 am

GreenKrog

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Not cool Annie. Not cool.

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Yeah, lots of little editor after-note stuff this week. It's a goddamn heavy week full of goddamn heavy stuff and I'm sorry but it's what I'm writing and that's how it is. You don't have to read it. I don't have to read it. I try not to read it. I try not to live it. But that isn't my choice.

When I first tried to die, I remember exactly how free I was. Because there was nothing left to shackle me down. All the weight was gone, my mortal troubles were in the past.
But I lived. And then I tried to die, again. And again. But instead of feeling less and less weight, it made the world that much heavier that I tried. If you are out there, reading this, seeing my life, seeing Annie's life, and you are in that dark place, please. Even if you succeed, it doesn't end. There is a wake of sorrow that nothing can heal. And if you fail, you come back into a world where that pain is tattooed permanently into your soul.
Instead of the pills, the blade, the rope, the gun, please.. use the phone instead. Use your keyboard. Use anything else, just talk to someone. Please. PLEASE?

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January 19th, 2015, 9:12 pm

Lex-Kat (Guest)

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The only time I ever tried, I didn't take enough pills. I think I took about 8 to 10 Tylenol PMs, and I still woke up the next day.

Luckily, I guess, it was my day off, so no one noticed I didn't get up in the morning. I didn't even have to go to the hospital or anything.

Evidently 8-10 Tylenols are not strong enough to do more than knock you out for a long sleep.

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