Inner Beauty

posted June 16th, 2015, 2:01 am


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June 23rd, 2014, 4:02 am

GreenKrog

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Man I hate that guy. He just.. he keeps showing up in the mirror. I'm beautiful now. I pass. I am ME. But he still shows up.

And then I look away, and I look back, and he is gone. And the only one left in the mirror is me.

Annie sees herself. With her beautiful brown hair. Her beautiful eyes. She knows how she will look when she is done growing, she sees her future. And now, she is taking her hormones, because she knows this is who she will be - not the man, not the thing to be feared, just, herself.

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June 16th, 2015, 5:15 am

AndreaD (Guest)

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Maybe one day I'll get to be there too, most likely after bariatric surgery and significant weight loss. Fortunately my work health insurance will cover that and I should have it by next year if all goes well.

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June 16th, 2015, 1:25 pm

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@AndreaD: Inner beauty is from within. The entire point is that things may not look how you want on the outside, and they may never look how you want on the outside. But you should, and the people who love you do, see past that to the person inside.

I would far rather have a friend who is big on the outside AND have a big heart inside, than to have a friend who is thin and can't carry a compliment to give away.

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June 16th, 2015, 11:35 pm

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@GreenKrog: here here! Looks are not what defines a person! A person is defined by their character. if you are beautiful within, it will reverberate and reflect without.

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June 16th, 2015, 11:59 pm

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@GreenKrog: Though realistically, Annie has a very good chance of passing and even looking really good. Considering that she already passes at least half the time and that she started hormones at a relatively young age, the odds are certainly in her favor.

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June 17th, 2015, 12:31 am

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@Anon: A person can be beautiful on the outside and rotted on the inside. They only look good until the first time they speak.
Believe me on this. Her outer beauty may grow, but unless she nurtures the woman within, it will wither and die.

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June 18th, 2015, 12:17 am

Anon (Guest)

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@GreenKrog: Oh, I'm perfectly aware of this. I'm just saying, her outside appearance should be the least of her worries.

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June 18th, 2015, 2:48 am

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@Anon: The unfortunate reality is, passing is a double edged sword. Sure, she gets a lot of privilege from the cis world, but the chances of her getting support from trans people where she needs it slips away faster and faster. It means she will have fewer physical altercations, to be clear, but it also means she will likely end up somewhat isolated emotionally.

At least, thats what seems to happen when you are pretty enough to pass but too fucked up to get over being trans.

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June 17th, 2015, 3:17 am

Siva (Guest)

mirrors

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Mirrors are not our friends. They show us, not reality, but a distortion of it. You think that's YOUR face in the mirror? Not quite. If it were, then why would there be a freckle on the reflection's left cheek, when you have it on your right?

Superficial stuff - anything about you that you can't help, from skin color and its tendency to get zits, to gender, to fat... none of this /should/ control how you feel about yourself. Alas, we all need to learn this, each in her (or his) own time.

Character is who you are when nobody's looking.

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