Red Tide

posted August 17th, 2015, 2:01 am


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August 30th, 2014, 3:41 am

GreenKrog

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I was incredibly lucky that I transitioned at a job where I worked what was essentially a night shift. It was hard to draw attention to myself, even if I did something bad or really good. But I know that every time I was out in public during my transition, I was terrified to have any attention directed my way. Annie isn't so lucky - if she does well in her classes, people will notice. If she does poorly (which she appears to be) people will notice.

Oh, and those rare times I did get attention brought to myself? Even if it was good? I usually ended up crying in the bathroom because people were looking at me.

Now though? Now I am strong, proud, beautiful, and nothing in this world or the next can stop me. If I knew now what I knew then? Well, maybe we wouldn't have WF, but we'd definitely have a less fractured GreenKrog.

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August 17th, 2015, 2:14 am

Angelika Tatsu

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There are some days where I want it to be the next day for the conclusion of a mini-arc, like right now. :P

After my dad died, that was my tipping point. I was at the bottom of the barrel....things couldn't get any worse. They could only get better or I could get dead and being dead wasn't an option. I decided to hunt down my demon and slay it....turns out that I couldn't slay it, but I was able to surrender my heart to it. The shards of my shattered soul had to heal. The only way that could happen was by letting myself become the demon and the more I became the demon the more that I found my truth, the truth of being transgender. My soul healed over time, because I forged an angel out of my demon. I am stronger for being transgender, stronger than I ever was before.

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August 17th, 2015, 2:25 am

Lady Emily (Guest)

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That teacher is rude.

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August 17th, 2015, 10:47 am

Anon (Guest)

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@Lady Emily: And also really shitty at French. No offense, GreenKrog.

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August 17th, 2015, 11:08 am

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@Anon: No offense taken. She is an English teacher, after all. And I am a terrible Canadian for only knowing English and having to use google translate!

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August 17th, 2015, 10:43 pm

Anon (Guest)

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@GreenKrog: Yeah, I understand. Most Canadians don't actually speak French. However, I do hail from the one place in the country where everyone does speak the language, so...
If you ever need something translated to French for the comic, you could ask me. I'd be happy to help you with that.

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August 18th, 2015, 2:17 am

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@Anon: Can't take you up on it, sorry. As a born and raised Calgarian, the only region of the country I hate more than Quebec is Edmonton. I'm sure you understand.
*glare*
I'm kidding, but seriously, there is some really anti-Quebec sentiment there. Mostly though, I just try to avoid french. And now Chinese, because whenever I try my coworkers and ex laugh at me. Xie xie though!

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August 18th, 2015, 8:02 am

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@GreenKrog: well, what about checking in with a Franco-Ontarian fan if you ever need help with a French translation, then? ;)

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August 18th, 2015, 3:33 pm

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@MreowCat: Will you easterners just leave me to my hatred and geopolitical bias in peace? French is bad! It is a lifestyle choice I cannot support! I made the teacher into a bad guy and made her speak french as an indication that french = evil! Like Albino people in the movies up until the national albino league got angry at Malfoy in Harry Potter! Except, it is against french people! And also people from Ontario, despite my sister living there! Basically, anything that isn't Alberta is bad! And by Alberta, I mean Calgary, because Edmonton sucks. Except that is where RMitchies comes from, so, exceptions can be made. My point is, french people and Ontario people all suck. And albinos don't. So stop trying to push your french-canadian agenda on me!
...though it would be deeply cool to have WF translated into other languages. But then the random Korean and french I have put in would be translated to English? I don't know if my brain could handle that.

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August 18th, 2015, 4:19 pm

Anon (Guest)

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@GreenKrog: It's okay, we hate you too, you western rednecks.
Just kidding.

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August 17th, 2015, 2:34 am

Drunkenmists

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One of the sole factors that "night shift" (aka, 11 - 9am area) shifts rock is because it is more based on merit than actual personality/work. As long as your work is done and people are not complaining; Your left alone. Management doesn't wanna come in during that time and assume all is good unless thier reports say otherwise.

That Said...Doing to good gets you in the wonderful place of...'oh; I know you work morning now..but I need you to train a whole new set of overnight workers. 16hr days? yeap. do it or quit.'

It has been nice that I can have my panic attacks without having to man the 'desk'.

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June 9th, 2017, 3:28 am

sunspark

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I'm a bit confused. It's been well established that Annie is a genius. Now I realize this is a much harder school, but it seems a bit unrealistic for her to be suddenly failing so many tests...

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June 9th, 2017, 8:24 am

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@sunspark: Annie's ability to produce is based on focus. When she is angry and focused hard, she can outswim most everyone else. When she is just normal, she falls behind.
Prior to her transition, she had nothing else going on in her life. As Bill pointed out, she had no friends. She lived out in the country where she didn't have distractions. The only thing she had was school, so it was her entire focus.

She is failing tests because she keeps losing focus. Dr Bernt goes back to the point again and again that Annie needs to be more than just a transitioning girl, but Annie fails this.

Unfortunately this was also based on my own life. In everything up to grade 9, I was easily top in class at every academic event. I was rather rotund, so anything physical related was a no. Around grade 10, new school, advance of puberty, beginning to understand that I was *wrong*. The course work wasn't any harder, but I spent so much time on trying to not be "that thing" that I began failing tests for the first time in my life. Instead of being able to focus, I did everything I could to keep myself distracted.
Like Annie, I still managed to pass courses, but compared to the first 10 years of school, it was night and day.

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